Some days I hear myself talking and see myself running around like a busy-body, and I wonder how it is possible that my family tolerates me at all, much less even
likes me! I feel like there are days where I am constantly correcting, getting after, nagging--whatever you wish to call it. I can feel myself being constantly upset, and I wish I would just relax and be happy. If
I notice it, I'm sure my husband and stepkids do also! So I try to just sit back and have the attitude that "anything goes", and that drives me even more crazy!! I can only sit down and be at ease when everything around me is in order. Yes, I suffer from a major case of OCD. I'm always going around behind my family, picking up, closing doors, hanging up, folding, putting away, turning off lights, wiping up, straightening--and I have to seriously wonder if having a clean, orderly house is worth all the effort. What am I losing in the process? Does everyone view me as a complete nag who cannot relax? Would they rather have me not giving a care, and just be there only for fun and giggles? If so, I'm in need of a major personality makeover. I don't know if I can pick up one of those at the local Target or Wal-Mart.
Didn't know you had a blog- just finished reading it all! I was so encouraged by your honesty, love, and sensitivity to being the best stepmom you can be. I pray your daughters bring you as much joy as mine do me:)
ReplyDeleteYou are doing a great job. Being a stepmom is not easy, but I would recommend doing what you are doing and let them help out. Send them back to clean up their stuff, shut the doors, etc. They say it takes 17 days for something to become a habit, so be a 'nag'. It will benefit them later on in life when they have a place of their own and they will thank you for it.
ReplyDeleteLove you!
God's Grace.